my vision is blurred with sparkling tears
my mind is succumbed with farraginous thoughts
in grief with abstrused circumstances
in agony with self-reproach
betrayed by my specious emotion
distraught with lassitude
the period of my existence is a mess
it consist of anger, failure and retaliation
beneath insanity and durance
i am an egocentric philistine
i am a lonely, embittered woman
a trash
firmament insinuates renewal
scintillating stars denotes brightness
moon arises and proposes light to go along
but my cognizance misleads me
not in hoping but in surrendering
not with beginning but with extremity